So, this is 2012. Looks a lot like the previous model. On the other hand, there are going to be some changes around here. For starters, I am going to post. I am going to post every day in 2012. In this blog. Here. In 2012. 366 posts. At least.

Of course, this is wishful thinking, it's just a new year's resolution, and those are, like everything, doomed to fail, to corrupt themselves, to fall prey to rationalization, latest victims of entropy and decay. Then again, so am I, and so are you, and it makes no sense to dwell in the sure failure to come, and instead I should focus on the current victory. This is the first day of 2012 and I am, indeed, posting today.

So, just to contradict myself, which I will do every time it may be more fun than being consistent with that moron I was in the past, let's talk about my past year.

Professionally, 2011 was a really big change, in that I stopped working on my own company and started (ok, that was in Dec 2009) working for Canonical. It has been really great in many ways, and not so great in others.

Great: I work with people I really like and respect. The work itself is full of interesting challenges.

Not Great: I have completely abandoned my free software projects, which are bitrotting.

Great: I have had the chance to visit three continents, and have awesome experiences.

Not Great: I have heard my kid cry on the phone about how he misses me. This year I may travel a bit less.

Great: Financial security for me and my family.

Not Great: If I had to grade my performance in a 1-10 scale, I may give myself a 6. I have lacked energy, and focus. I have been disorganized and lazy. I will try to improve.

Great: we shipped product.

Not Great: we could have shipped better product. I will do my part to make it better in 2012.

What else has been going on i my life in 2011? Well, my health is worse. I am fatter. I have been diagnosed with a hormonal imbalance which may account for some/most/all of it, and I will be starting treatment this month. This may also be to blame for part of my hypertension, and for my abysmal level of energy the last couple of years.

I have put my marriage under a big strain, which I hope I can revert in 2012, since I really love my wife, and want to make her happy.

I will get my mouth fixed this year. If you know me personally you may know what that means. I have awful teeth. I have never fixed them because of a perhaps understandable fear of having people put sharp things in my mouth. But I want to be able to smile to my family, so I will get it fixed. (BTW: you have not seen a honest, unthinking smile from me in about 15 years. Sucks, I know.)

How will I be able to do all these things? I don't know. I know I may not. I suspect I will not. I expect I will not. I will not. But I will try. I will do what I can, and take the fall for what I can't.

But right now, I am focusing on little bits. I am posting in this blog. 1 day down, 365 to go.


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